Tuesday 21 April 2015

some thoughts about you ...my crush

                                                        UNSPOKEN WORDS
                                                                                 KINGSTAR MAKER
Princes of the night
Dream come alive
I know you don’t know you
Yet I love you
Why?
Is it your glanced?
Shadow and mysterious
Is it your touch?
Flutter of a butterfly’s wine
Soft as a jasmine petal.
I actually don’t planned for this moment
Nor unintended this passion…
“Love sought me out”
Caught me by surprise
Yet I feel it’s so true of that I have no doubt.
Because my love for you is so true
No formality no conditional for you
I never force you to love me,
Nor I flirt with you or someone else
I never told you about my feelings
Because I care it, but
I know you won’t
I never interrupt you, nor did u give me the right to do it
The only thing I know and you won’t
I love you even you won’t
I need you
Even you won’t
I never have the feelings on someone as much as I have on you.
But you didn’t bother because you are in a flew
I thought you noticed
I figured I was wrong
Where ever I may go, you never know
My heart beats for you and will forever
Don’t you know?
I have a crush on you
You have on someone else
I care for you
You do the same but for someone else
I have fallen in love with you,
I know you have also but with someone else
Whenever I saw you my heart got blinked
As like a flash of a camera
But yours blinks for someone else
I dream about you
But you dream about someone else
With knowing your heart belongs to someone else
Still I love you and I will with a craze
I know you will call me mad,
But actually I am not, oh but yes I am crazy
I don’t feel lazy to say it to you
Just I afraid
I let you to know I love you
And I will forever
And I know you will also do the same
But for someone else
Just remember..!!!
I’m always here for you to give you oceans of love
For you is so unconditional so true..!!
I love you…
“IT’S SAID THAT IF YOU WAN’T SOMETHING WHOLE HEARTEDLY, THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES TO BRING IT TO U”         
               -KINGSTAR MAKER

Monday 20 April 2015

STORY OF A HEART BREAK KID


                                                  STORY OF A HEART BREAK KID

Today someone asked me whether I am interested in someone else?
By hearing that questions, tears trickled down from my eyes, yet there was a smile on my face.
Do you know why? Because it’s reminded me about my crush 
Yap you caught right it’s not love it’s a crush .it’s better to say one sided love.
As because the girl I love she loves another guy. I remember the day .that was 24th of February 2015. finally on that day I decided to tell her about my feelings regarding her. I was not prepared how can I handle this as because I was too much nervous at that time. Because this is the first time I was proposing a girl. I told my friends regarding this and they suggested me with their amazing ideas. but I was less of confidence at that time .watching my condition one of my friends just did a tricky, but I didn't have much priority regarding this at that time’s was feeling as I am in top of the world .strangely my nervousness gone, at the recess time one of my friend called me said zombie (my crush, not her real name) is calling you. I got exited and went to the steers and saw she came up to me and said “say what’s up?” I replayed at a very low tone voice “I need to tell you something” with big eyes she stared at me and said “say what you want to say” I got nervous and thought a big right hand is coming to my face with some slokes. I said nothing somehow I ran way without saying her anything. All who are there in the corridor are now starring at me. My friends noticed me and they caught me at a manner as they are coughing a burglary thieve. One of them hold my hand few holding my legs and pulling me towards my crush.I don’t know where I got such super human power,I pushed all of them ,and ran in to the class .at this time my mind was of no man’s land .no thoughts were there .all I was thinking what I did ,and what will be the result of that. Then finally the final bell rings .as soon as the school was over I ride to my bicycle and went from the school towards home’s was nervous regarding what her. What she will think of my strange behavior. News spread to most of the students. On my way to home I notice it’s her van passing way and all were staring at me she looks and then turned away as I have made a serious crime. At night she came up in dreams and said some Sanskrit slokes. I didn't able to hear it .as because a beeper sounds when she was delivering her words .its pretty much similar to the beeper which sounds on censored movies when some Sanskrit slokes were delivered. And then I lost in to her memories.
The very next day I went to the school my sister told me that previous day my crush immediately went to her home and reported to her regarding my uncensored actions. My sister told to me that zombie loves another guy from the core of her heart. Suddenly a darkness came up in my eyes’ was brain stormed almost tears came up from my eyes but I somehow managed .because I don’t want to show my tears in front of my sister. So I got the answer without giving her my proposal. First time got broken so can’t able to think what to do what to not. I realized it was a dream to get hermits much like a day dream. I looked at myself . I questioned myself what I have? The answer was simple “nothing”. I don’t have attitude, I don’t have unbelievable talents nor do I have good looks. I said to my heart might I not liable to her. I tried every way to forget her but I can’t able to forget. I blocked her I have made her more over 120 sketches .I burned all of them I have shared all my feelings in too many papers ,I thrown some and some I blew in fire but I can’t able to forget her.
Still my heart cries for her. But that wouldn't change the fact that she doesn't have precious feelings for me.
Yep I have to erase all my thoughts and dreams .I cant but I have to.
“THAT’S WHAT I ALWAYS SAY TOUGHEST JOURNEY IN THE WORLD IS JOURNEY IN TO A GIRL’S HEART IF YOU MAKE IT, FEEL UR SELF LUCKY”